Sleepless Night II: K-Ballad

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Hello my dear, Dreamies. This is your Little Star!

Malam ni agak emotional sikit.

Mungkin sebab dengar lagu K-Ballad.

Entah kenapa rasa macam nak cari je all underrated K-Ballad Artist yang betul-betul talented in their music especially lyrics. Awal bulan Mac, author mula kenal Chancellor. His voice and music wise adalah sangat-sangat amazing. Kalau tak percaya boleh klik link ni Surrender by Chancellor

Author nak share sikit maksud lagu Surender ni. 

Manalah tahu kalau ada yang nak baca dulu maksud dia baru tekan link yang author bagi. 

Bahasa Inggeris tau sebab nanti jadi pelik kalau dalam BM.

'Chancellor ft. Lyn – Surrender'

Don’t look at me like that
You look like someone else
Your astray words
Pierce through my body

Saying sorry is too hard
(Please)
So I get tired and hurt
Without even knowing why

There’s a tornado in my heart
I can’t stop it
Words became knives
Our hearts became ash
We can’t turn it around
It becomes an echo in my room and shouts
I couldn’t stand it
Do you even love me?
Do you even know how I feel?
I’m getting used to the words
I surrender

You keep knocking on my scars
Raising your arms instead of listening to me
Don’t leave me alone like this
It was so hard to endure till now
One more step
Did you have to do this until the end?
At the start of the end
Without even knowing why

There’s a tornado in my heart
I can’t stop it
Words became knives
Our hearts became ash
We can’t turn it around
It becomes an echo in my room and shouts
I couldn’t stand it
Do you even love me?
Do you even know how I feel?
I’m getting used to the words
I surrender

I can’t change without you
Forgive me, I can’t do anything
I hate what I say
when I’m mad at you babe
I’m flying, I’m waiting for you

There’s a tornado in my heart
I can’t stop it
Words became knives
Our hearts became ash
We can’t turn it around
It becomes an echo in my room and shouts
I couldn’t stand it
Do you even love me?
Do you even know how I feel?
I’m getting used to the words
Cuz I surrender

Chancellor's Profile

• Real Name: Michael Kim / Kim Jung Seung
• Stage Name: Chancellor
• Hangul: 챈슬러
• Position: Solo
• Birthday (Y.M.D): 22.10.86
• Nationality: Korean
• Height: 178cm (5ft 10in)
• Weight: 64kg (141lbs)
• Formerly of*: Xtacy Xport, One Way as Chance
• Debut (Y.M.D): 13.08.16
• Label: Brand New Music
• Instagram: @chancellorofficial

KPOP (only EXO for now) Collection

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Author nak kongsikan sedikit koleksi KPOP yang berjaya dikumpul oleh diri ini sejak tahun 2014. Sejujurnya, dulu memang author pernah kumpul beberapa album daripada boy group lain but hati ni asyik -asyik  berubah. Rasa susah nak kena keep up dengan group lain and author kena selalu up-to-date dengan my Ultimate Group, EXO punya older or future releases yang belum complete lagi. So, in the end, sudah dijual yang lain-lain haha. Oleh itu, author putuskan untuk kumpul EXO related things sahaja dahulu since akhir-akhir tahun 2015.

Sekarang, dah hampir 3 tahun sejak author mula kumpul official releases from EXO. 8hb Jun 2017 *ehem ehem my bday* nanti masuklah 3 tahun hehe. Yup! Author dapat album KPOP pertama waktu birthday in 2014. Ayah authorlah yang belikan album EXO yang pertama untuk author. Shout out to ABAH! Bukan satu tau tapi 3 album sekali(EXO-K Mama, Overdose dan MID) Wow! Best father in the world!

Balik kepada topik asal. Nak kata koleksi author banyak sangat tu memang taklah kalau nak dibandingkan dengan KPOP Collector yang lain. Maklumlah author mula kumpul semasa usia 15 tahun dan most of my collection datang daripada wang saku yang disimpan dengan kesabaran yang sentiasa teguh iaitu menahan selera time rehat. Duit belanja time sekolah dulu memang tak pernah lebih RM5/sehari. Kalau stay back dapatlah double tapi kenalah belanja sikit sebab stay kan~

Sekali je kut author guna duit simpanan untuk benda bukan KPOP. RM300+ klau tak silap untuk beli smart phone pertama author. Time tu Form 3 and kawan-kawan sekelas selalu cakap pasal whatsapplah.... twitterlah... and others but authorlah yang paling blank sekali. So, kiranya terpaksalah ni beli smart phone untuk communicate dengan kawan-kawan and keep up with homeworks. Menyusahkan betullah! Tengok sekarang author dah agak susah nak lepas daripada phone. Ish..ish..ish... Takpelah nasi dah jadi bubur~ Nak buat macam mana????

Okay! Kalau ada yang curious dengan wang yang sudah author belanja untuk KPOP, hmmm kalau nak dikira total semua koleksi author, ada capai RM1000 lebih kut. Entahlah. Baru tahun 2017 nak keep track dengan barang-barang yang dibeli. Itu belum masuk tiket pergi EXO'luXion dan EXO'rDIUM hahaha. Memang kaya kut kalau author tak guna semua duit tu untuk beli album bagai. Tidak mengapalah~

Follow my collection account on instagram @baekxactly

https://www.instagram.com/baekxactly/

There's no regret on anything I've done. I spent my money on the things that I love. It's my hobby, my interest or you can call it my passion? I sacrificed myself by refraining myself from spending my money. I even learnt how to save up. I also learnt the joy of collecting. I met many collectors friend online and even improved my English. That could be the reason that my English is constantly getting better each days. I can proudly say that. 

Collecting is definitely my source of happiness which other things couldn't give me. My stress were all healed because of my collection and of course EXO is the main reason for that. I hope to continue collecting in decades and so on. Unless..... something stops me which I wish won't.

EXO Concert Tickets:
- EXO'luXion CAT 1(O) Row D - RM650 *bought from twitter*
- EXO'rDIUM ROCK L - RM735 *bought from twitter*


COLLECTION LIST *will update from time to time*

- Debut/1st Mini album 'MAMA'
Version: EXO-K & EXO-M
Photocard: Baekhyun Ver. B, Xiumin Ver. B
Poster: EXO-K & EXO-M
- Debut/1st Mini album 'MAMA' *china press*
Version: EXO-K & EXO-M
Photocard: Baekhyun & Xiumin Ver. A, EXO-K, EXO-M, EXO
Poster: N/A
- 1st Studio album 'XOXO'
Version: Kiss(Korean) & Hug(Chinese)
Photocard: Baekhyun
Poster: 3 version
- 1st Repackage album 'GROWL'
Version: Korean & Chinese
Photocard: Baekhyun
Poster: 1 poster
- 2nd Mini album 'OVERDOSE'
Version: EXO-K & EXO-M
Photocard: Baekhyun, Xiumin, Chen, Suho
Poster: 1 poster
- 2013 Winter Special album 'MIRACLES IN DECEMBER'
Version: White(Korean) & (Chinese)
Snowglobe: Baekhyun, OT12
Poster: White version only (RED version$)
- 2nd Studio album 'EXODUS'
Cover: Baekhyun 2x & Xiumin 2x
Version: Gold(Korean) & Silver(Chinese)
Photocard: Baekhyun 2x,  Xiumin 2x
Poster: Baekhyun & Xiumin version
- 2nd Repackage album 'LOVE ME RIGHT'
Version:Korean & Chinese
Photocard: Baekhyun
Poster: 2 version
- 1st Japanese Single album 'LOVE ME RIGHT ~romantic universe~'
Cover: Baekhyun & Group
Version: Normal, CD+DVD
Photocard: Baekhyun, Xiumin, Chen
Poster: N/A
- 2015 Winter Special album 'SING FOR YOU'
Cover: Baekhyun 2x
Version:Korean & Chinese
Photocard: Baekhyun 2x
Poster: 3 version
- Suzy X Baekhyun Single album 'DREAM'
Version: N/A
Photocard: N/A
Poster: N/A
- 3rd Studio album 'EX'ACT'
Cover: Monster 2x & Lucky One 2x
Version: Korean & Chinese
Photocard: Baekhyun 2x, Xiumin 2x
Poster: 2 version
- 3rd Repackage album 'LOTTO' $
Version:
Photocard: 
Poster:
- Lay 1st Mini album 'lose control' $
Version:
Photocard: 
Poster:
- EXO-CBX 1st Mini album 'HEY MAMA!'
Cover: Baekhyun
Photocard: All 3 version Baekhyun
Poster: 2 version
- 2nd Japanese Single album 'COMING OVER'
Cover: Baekhyun & Group
Version: Normal, CD+DVD
Photocard: Baekhyun
Poster: N/A
-  2016 Winter Special album 'FOR LIFE'
Photocard&Postcard: Baekhyun
Poster: $



COLLECTION THAT WERE SOLD
- WINNER debut album '2014 S/S' Normal Version + Mino photocard + poster
- BTS 1st Single '2 Cool 4 Skool'
- BTS 1st Mini 'O!RUL8,2?' + Group&V photocard
- BTS 2nd Mini 'Skool Luv Affair' + Jin photocard
- BTS 2nd Mini 'Skool Luv Affair' *won from a giveaway*
- BTS 1st Album 'Dark & Wild' + Group&V photocard
- BTS 'Skool Luv Affair' Special Addition + Jimin photocard
- V Now in Thailand Photo
- SEVENTEEN '17 Carat' + White version photocards
- SEVENTEEN 'Boys Be' Hide version + Wonwoo ver. A photocard

Sleepless Night: Self Poem

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From the title, maybe you couldtell that I wrote this because I haven't lay myself on my bed yet. I couldn't sleep these days maybe because of what had happened on 18th March 2017. I still couldn't move on since that day. Should I say that it was the best day and the sweetest memories in my life! If you don't know why that date is special, it was my 2nd concert experience which is EXO Planet #3 'The EXO'rDIUM' concert in Malaysia. I haven't post any entry about my K-POP Concert experience yet at the time being as I was comparing my 1st and 2nd one. I'll be sure to post about it in my next entry. Stay update *wink wink*

Okay! Since this post is one of my random post, I'll just talk about anything that came into my mind.

A few days before, I wrote my first poem ever and I thought I should share with all of you. Since I'm gonna pursue language I thought that I should give it a shot. It might not be perfect and good quality of a poem but I wrote it sincerely from the bottom of my heart. It was what I actually felt after almost 18 years living in this place called EARTH haha very dramatic. I love my earth ^_^. I love my family and I love my life! Okay, here is my 1st poem.
p/s: Don't have any high expectation ya~

A CUP OF LIFE by Aliah.K

My life is,

Too short to call it extreme job,
Too small to fill the whole cup.

Is it just me,

Always seeking for any better

which clearly shows my ungratefulness.

Is it just me,

Always craving for happiness

which shows no hint of presence.

Laugh, joy, or even a smile,

Why does they come in a while?

Cry, sorrow, and bucket of tears,

      All I want is real happiness.      

[SPM 2016] My Downfall

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/Khamis, 16 Mac 2017/
Tarikh penting yang akan dilupakan secepat yang mungkin.

Congrats to all my '99 friends! To say that I'm happy and satisfied with my result is wrong because it's far from good result. But, to say that I'm sad and mad with my result is wrong too because I'm fortunate enough to get that kind of result. Alhamdulillah~ I'm very thankful with my result as it's slightly better than any other exams I've sat in during Form 4 or 5. Allah knows what's best for me. Alhamdulillah again.

If you're curious with my result, let me give you some hints. There's a total of six grade. Do consider +/solid/- as different grade ya~ As always, my worst grade is the subject I tried to like but still couldn't change my result *psst! Starts with A*. My best result is the first letter of my (2nd)name. The conclusion is my result is RAINBOW like always. No twist and turn. About the same as my previous result if you knew them. I think you could probably guess them if you're my friends or maybe not if you just don't even care.

So, I considered SPM as my Dark Era. I used to be at the top but I'm at the bottom now starting from (5A)UPSR to (9A1C)PT3 and (??????)SPM. My parents said they're proud of me and that really makes me feels bad as I know they don't! I gotta admit that my result is pretty nice to look at if I show you the way. But, I'm not gonna show you. I tried to calm myself down by saying that my result is aesthetically beautiful.  Since 16th March, I've made up my mind that I'm not gonna study Bio, Phy and Chem anymore. I'm so done with addmath! From now on, I'm gonna decide my future. I will choose my own path. Don't try to stop me!

p/s: I'm not proud with my result and that's it. Don't try to comforts me. They just don't help at all! If you're proud with your result, keep on doing that. Don't mind me.

Thanks for reading all of these. Till we meet again in my future posts! 

Annyeong! Bbyeong!

Answers: (NONE OF MY FRIENDS KNOW THIS)

Bahasa Melayu  A  Bahasa Inggeris  A  Pendidikan Islam  A  Sejarah  A-  Mathematics  B+

Additional Mathematics  D  Physics  C  Chemistry  C  Biology  C+

CGE-O 1A
Perkara Asas Fardhu A'in LULUS

Study Episode: FORM 6?

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Hello my dear, Dreamies. This is your Little Star!

I think I should change my introduction from time to time. Oh well! We'll see how it will goes. First of all, thanks for spending your golden time here. I'm just a typical Malay girl, so don't mind all the Grammar mistakes below. Without further a due, it's time to read! Good luck. Hope you will find this post useful and worth to read haha. Do leave some comments and get to know each other.

Topic: FORM 6?

I thought I should share this with all of you. To be honest, I still don't think if I made a good decision or not. Well, my I talked about Form 6 with others, they always look low and said that why would I choose to be in Form 6 when I'm smart enough to be in Martriks and Asasi. Well, they should at least try to be in my shoes. I'd given up on my studies in Form 4 because of my excessive depression and the fact that I'm now slowly back on track is good enough.

Since September 2016 or October, a few weeks before SPM, I began to gain interest with my future that I looked through many websites about what I could do to pursue studies after SPM. First, I didn't think I had anything on mind but at that time, I was very interested to Biology. So, I searched up almost everything about which courses should I pick to continue learning Biology. You'll be surprised to know that I used to hate Biology, like a lot than anything in the world.

Continue with my story. I found a lot of diploma courses where I could study Biology but my dad opposed with my decision and asked me if I wanted to waste my years with diploma. He suggested that I enter Matriks(I submitted the form before SPM Trial). After hearing my English teacher opinion about Matriks, I was freaked out and promised that I would never ever enter Matriculation Program!

Somewhere in mid January 2017, I've made up my mind to join Form 6 Arts Stream. What made me choose Form 6 are...

1) The program is short. Only a year and a half.
2) It's much cheaper than others.
3) I still get to stay at home. My hostel trauma is still with me.
4) My father will not feel burden with my allowance since my sister is in diploma program in Malacca.
5) I love languages. Be it Malay or English or Korean or Japanese or Chinese. I would like to pursue language and become a language expert.
6) I said goodbye to Add Math since my SPM examination end.
7) My Form 4's dream is language related!
8) I absorb any new words better like a sponge than Science terms or Mathematics Formula XD



The main reason that I found out recently and the answers to my endless thought. I recalled all of my childhood's dream and everything was Science related except my Form 4's dream. It was when I was in my boarding school. When everyone else told their ambition, it was all extraordinary and 100% Science field and when it was my turn, the English teacher who was curious with the new faces' ambition had a long stare on me. And that was because of my non-Science ambition. I stood up semi-confidently and told the whole classes that I wanted to be a Traveler Translator or Interpreter. She said that why did I came to the Science School and in the Science Stream class. Since that was my first (well not actually the first) time talking in English in the class, I was a bit flustered and ended  up telling that my parents wanted me(at least one of their child) to enter a boarding school. I didn't expect to to accepted in the school that I chose as my first choice but I somehow end up getting there and everything did feel like a dream. That's a bit of the story about how I revealed my unexpected ambition.

Although I think it's a loss to stop learning Science (Biology, Physics, Chemistry), I should do what I like to actually feel the pleasure and success in life. I should enjoy everything I learn and do. I would love to learn Biology if anyone would like to teach me personally. I'm most interested with BLOOD since Form 3(2014). Haha. That was random! Let's get back to Form 6 topic. I wished I could share something about Form 6 but I couldn't now. Maybe after I entered Form 6 estimated in early May(?) I guess?

So, that's all for now. More Study Episodes will be posted in the future. Wish me luck, Dreamies. I wish all of you a million of happiness and luck. Don't let people look down on your dream even if it's as tiny as microorganism. Just be bold and proud until you achieve your beautiful dreams.

Annyeong~ Bbyeong!